Two posts in one week? Apocalypse must be upon us! Actually, it's just Halloween, a holiday I enjoyed as a kid (even as a Christian kid), then loathed as a stick-up-my-butt Christian parent (thankfully a brief period), and now enjoy again. And because it's Halloween, I'm seeing all sorts of ridiculous stuff online that I … Continue reading American Jesus: The “Real” Story of the Halloween Pumpkin
For me, losing my faith is not just about a change in my personal life. It is about all of the relationships in my life, about my identity and my place in the society where I have grown and belonged my whole life. It is tantamount to renouncing my citizenship in the country of my birth - by choice - and therefore losing all of my alliances, all of my protections, all of my security, and all of my privileges. And that is the part of deconversion you can't possibly understand if you grew up outside belief.
I used to think life would be easier if I believed all the stuff I used to believe. Not believing has been damn hard. So I've tried. Really I have. Tried for the sake of my family, my marriage, my community, my sanity. I've tried to re-believe what I thought I knew, what I was … Continue reading in which i give up