Been missing from the fray for a few weeks. End of school, travel and then my husband was in the hospital. Yeah, that last part was definitely not planned. He's doing great now, but was kind of at death's door without our even knowing it was that bad. He was sick at home for a … Continue reading finding hope and healing in new places and new ways
Doctors aren’t god but thank them anyway (or, Where did The Great Physician do his residency?)
Once upon a time, I was the pray-er. Have an ache? I'll lay hands on you. Have a problem? I'll remember you to the lord. Have an illness? I'll pray for you. Have a wayward child, a sick relative, a broken relationship? Give me a name and I'll lift it up. I believed there was … Continue reading Doctors aren’t god but thank them anyway (or, Where did The Great Physician do his residency?)
does the truth that sets you free always hurt like hell?
This past weekend was one of extreme highs and extreme lows. Sunday morning, I was high on intimacy after spending a romantic, adventurous, fun-filled weekend away with my husband. But within hours on Sunday afternoon, I had descended into hell. We were on a long (5 hour) car ride, heading home after our amazing weekend together. … Continue reading does the truth that sets you free always hurt like hell?
Ash Wednesday: A CrossRoad
Today is a conundrum for me. A day of decision. A day that leads to the cross for many is leading to a crossroad for me. It's Ash Wednesday, the day liturgical Christians recognize the beginning of Lent by going to church and receiving smudges of ash on their foreheads as they are reminded: "From dust … Continue reading Ash Wednesday: A CrossRoad
is there prayer without god?
Even though I am questioning everything I ever thought I knew about God, I am having trouble letting go of the idea that there is some kind of power in prayer. What is prayer, anyway? Is it begging a deity to do something? Is a deity a requirement? Is it a collective hope for something … Continue reading is there prayer without god?
are you there, god….?
I asked a lot of questions in church last Sunday. I didn't raise my hand. I didn't state them to the priest in charge in front of the congregation. Our service is modern but we're not that kind of church. (I grew up in that kind of church, though - where anyone and everyone was … Continue reading are you there, god….?
one true love?
All my life, I was told there was one special man God had chosen for me. Someone who would walk with me, guide me, be my friend and lover and soul mate. And I believed it. Because I lived with it. My parents, who were passionate lovers of God, had an amazing marriage. Theirs was … Continue reading one true love?
what is wrong with me?
I couldn't sing yesterday. My husband and I attend a church plant. It's a small group, meets in a school cafeteria, and we are part of the actual plant team from the big church across the river. I'm a musician and singer, but not for the plant. They got someone younger and hipper to do … Continue reading what is wrong with me?
I've been lost before - while driving, choosing a major, finding a career, finding a mate. That kind of lost doesn't scare me. But now I am a kind of lost that I haven't been before. Spiritually lost. I grew up Christian. Fundamentalist, Evangelical, Charismatic Christian. The kind with bible drills and flannel graphs, vacation … Continue reading lost