One of my constant struggles right now is deciding whether or not to admit to my friends and family that I no longer believe like I used to, or like they still do. While it has been a difficult journey, there are certain beliefs that I always had a problem with and am glad I … Continue reading Beliefs I do not miss: Thanking the god of parking spots, plumbing and hygiene products
Two posts in one week? Apocalypse must be upon us! Actually, it's just Halloween, a holiday I enjoyed as a kid (even as a Christian kid), then loathed as a stick-up-my-butt Christian parent (thankfully a brief period), and now enjoy again. And because it's Halloween, I'm seeing all sorts of ridiculous stuff online that I … Continue reading American Jesus: The “Real” Story of the Halloween Pumpkin
For me, losing my faith is not just about a change in my personal life. It is about all of the relationships in my life, about my identity and my place in the society where I have grown and belonged my whole life. It is tantamount to renouncing my citizenship in the country of my birth - by choice - and therefore losing all of my alliances, all of my protections, all of my security, and all of my privileges. And that is the part of deconversion you can't possibly understand if you grew up outside belief.
I think life would be easier if I believed all the stuff I used to believe. That the world was supposed to be perfect until people fucked it up, but it can be perfect again one day. That people want to do good but are messed up and in need of redeeming, and even the worst … Continue reading i fucking give up
On the way home from work recently, I saw a bad accident near my neighborhood. Apparently a truck cut across 4 lanes of traffic and a median, hitting several oncoming cars and ending up in the woods. I'm not sure of the details. I try not to be one of those rubber-neckers that stop to stare … Continue reading a million tiny doubts
Been missing from the fray for a few weeks. End of school, travel and then my husband was in the hospital. Yeah, that last part was definitely not planned. He's doing great now, but was kind of at death's door without our even knowing it was that bad. He was sick at home for a … Continue reading finding hope and healing in new places and new ways
Once upon a time, I was the pray-er. Have an ache? I'll lay hands on you. Have a problem? I'll remember you to the lord. Have an illness? I'll pray for you. Have a wayward child, a sick relative, a broken relationship? Give me a name and I'll lift it up. I believed there was … Continue reading Doctors aren’t god but thank them anyway (or, Where did The Great Physician do his residency?)